Well here we are…………. as usual, I have begun to document my exercise and mental state of mind changes for this year…… and as usual, life got in the way and I was sidetracked. I am probably no closer to my goal than when I started. And honestly, thats ok….I can’t undo anything. I can however keep moving forward, and pick up where I left off. So here we are. I have been a bit discouraged on this project I think. I thought people…. not sure who exactly…but “people” would be here for me and encourage me to change myself. I see blogs out there that have thousands of followers and think to myself…. well if I was a pretty girl, or just posted naked photos I would have lots of people there for me…. But in the end I realize…this isn’t about you following me, encouraging me or standing by me. This blog is about me changing and documenting that progress. And sometimes that is the loneliest road to walk. Some people seem to be mostly interested in things that are “for them” or do something “for them” physically, mentally, sexually or emotionally…….

So in Lloyd Rosen tradition….I will get back up and start fighting again. I believe I can change, and I believe I can see this through to the end……….. I would love if I had a crowd cheering me on, but I’ll go regardless and keep a hope that in my struggle to find me………..who knows, maybe I will inspire one other person to find themselves.

So here we go, lets see if I can do this…